Drink and Smoke till DEATH...
Thursday, August 27, 2009, 3:26 AM
haiz... look at the time now and it's already 3 plus... Wtf... Dont know why just can't sleep... Thinking of him again.... :( I admit i did went to browse all the past videos of him & photos of us in my laptop... I'm still having the sweet feeling... yup yup... Miss him alot... Then i realised that the only way that i can hear his voice is through his videos... Deleted him from my fb long ago... cause i know myself very well... I'll keep viewing his profile... & this will only make me more sad... But still,i viewed Beng's profile... Hoping to see some new photos of him... 1 month has past... :( ok.. I still love yong xing...
Realised that i actually smoke alot when i'm out this few days.... at least 10 cigs/day... I dont know what's wrong with me... I really want to quit... But this is the only way that i feel that he's beside me... sorry guys... i still didn't quit.... :'( A few days ago, 1 of my friend told me that if i still dont control, next time it will be 20 cigs/day.... haiz....
Today saw Mich & Ade at Tiong de mac... Then saw some photos on Mok's birthday... Saw me & him in those photos... Really sweet... :( I know i got to go back to normal... But i can't....
PS: Probably i need more time for this...
Just wanna say, "I still love you alot alot alot... & yes! it's still increasing each day... Never stop!"
"And please don't tell me that I'm dreamin' When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you....."