I SAW HIM TODAY... :(
Today when to sch in the morning to sit for my drawing exam...
On my way, to the class room, he actually came to my mind & i was wondering how would i face him if 1 day we bump into each other in sch... & i was hoping that i wont be able to see him for the next 2 years plus... But i know it's impossible... Since we're both in ABE.... :(
Isometric drawing is tough & i seriously hope i can pass my drawing overall....
Then right after paper, went to W5 to do presentation for exp with Jing....
Just when we were on our way to moberly, saw HIM walking through W5 to W5a...
:( He look super tired... Not the HIM who i knew before... [The Smiley de ta...]
He wore his spec (should be a new one), headset on (still not using the one that i bid on net), carrying his model stuff.... He kept yawning... He look really tired....
When i saw him from far, i was totally shock, & idk why, my heart just hurts...
I stopped where i am & look at him... But he didn;t see me....
Or maybe he pretend not to see me....
After a while, when he slowly disappear from my sight, i continue my way to the stat...
Felt like crying... But, tears still didn;t roll down... No point crying...
But my heart still hurts when i realise that we're totally strangers to each other now....
Just then, saw shaun & some of his friends from DARCH... Shaun saw me, but he didn;t wave/"Hi"... He didn;t recognise me? idk.... Whenever i see his friends, it just makes me think of him... & at the end i ended emo-ing... :(
Sometimes, i'm wondering.... Why is love like this.....
We were together & as close as none of you could think off...
But after a break up, we are totally strangers....
& i felt that he actually finds me irritating...


PS: Where's the love like before.....
I felt that eveything was so fake....
I still love him but i know there's no way back....
I need time to forget you.....