omg!!!
scare me.. scare me.. scare me..!!! :(

Just now when i'm about to go home after all my crying for YX at the playground near my block, 1 stupid disgusting indian guy followed me!!!! Whatever with the crying for him again...
The main thing is, when i call YX praying that he'll ans my call & acc me home...
So that if anything really happen, there's some one there... But....
Stupid de him!!!! Never pick up my call... wtf....
Then i stay at the void deck of blk 1 for a while... hoping that the indian guy will walk off...

After a while, i quickly run back to my block there...
Lift-ed & home-ed!!!! :( Xia si wo le la... Somemore, no one at home la.... :'(
Reached home le jiu faster lock door liao... :(


Whatever!!!! bleah!

Today woke up early in the morning.... Preparing to go Chinese Garden there to see YX dragon boat race.... At the very 1st place, i didn't even know what's the time that his race will be starting... & i didnt tell him about me going.... Reached there at 12 plus, preparing to wait for his race to start under the super big sun!!!! Sat on a chair over there for about 2 plus hour... Finally saw YX & his team mates... At that time, it's already 3.... Anyway, he didnt see me... I didnt want him to see me too.... Just wanna go see him rowing....
Ok.. fine... i miss him...


Then after seeing YX rolled for his 1st race, i left....
When i was at FOX trying on 1 of the tops, i found out something!!!!
MY BACK GOT BURNT!!!! Serious! this is not like my normal Sentosa sun burn...
Super pain....!!!! My whole back is RED!!!!
See that cross behind my back, that's actually the straps of my clothes.... :'(
All because of staying under the hot sun hoping to see him.... :(

Happy that he won some of his race....


PS: I dont know what i want now...
I still miss YX, I still love YX... But also, I'm hating YX now....

PS2: I really super tired with all the crying over for him stuffs le...
Sometime i really hope that i've never met him before...
So that i wont be like that now..... :(
Always can't figure out the reason why YX can just let it go like that....

PS3: I start to hate myself for loving him so much.....


LYDIA SIEW LI ER KNOW THAT KHOO YONG XING WON'T COME BACK ANYMORE!!! SHE KNOWS THAT...