i just woke up~
Saturday, December 26, 2009, 2:41 PM
i know i know i know i should stop.... haiz~ Those who are getting irritated to all these, i'm sorry.. then dont comment after you've read... i just wanna... type out! arrggghhhh.... ok fine... Randomly view KHOO YONG XING'S profile... Then dont know why i'm able to view all his walls & stuff even i'm not his friend... But anyway, i'm happy la~ Cause i will be able to know what is he up to recently~ All the gay-ness, childish-ness, and... i found out some one who he is like.... close? i dont know... Obviously, is a SHE... kept telling myself, "so what? he's not yours anymore~ you cant do anything~ & plus he dont even care much about you anymore... " But, please la.. no matter what, you guys should know, i still got feelings for him right? fine! JEALOUS! Till now, i still cant totally let go of us, because i still dont know where's the prob... -.- fine~ i dont wish to talk about the past....But i'm, still thinking~ Time really cures everything~ & i got to admit, feeling for him getting lesser every single day~ :( But whenever, i got to know about him, see him (even photos), everything is back!!!

Because of him, i'm like killing myself -.- Drink Drank Drunk!!! Smoke!!! Club!!! -.-
& he doesnt give a damn.... i know all these stuffs are not worth it~
But, i dont know~ arrrrggghhhhh~ I'm trying to quit le :(

Ps to KHOO YONG XING: i doubt you'll read my blog... But, i hope you'll get this... Really take care of yourself whenever you're training... Dont want to know that you're sick all stuff... Knowing Mr Bicep sick so "xin tong"... i dont know what will happen to us in the past, now or future... But right now, i can confirm 1 thing and that is....

LYDIA SIEW LI ER STILL LOVES KHOO YONG XING

Ps: And for this reason, i'm still not letting other guys to step into my life now~ :(

Ps2: I'm serious when i say this.... I RATHER YONG XING BE A GAY INSTEAD OF HAVING A NEXT GF... yup~ i'm selfish!