Drink and Smoke till DEATH...
Thursday, August 27, 2009, 3:26 AM
haiz... look at the time now and it's already 3 plus... Wtf... Dont know why just can't sleep... Thinking of him again.... :( I admit i did went to browse all the past videos of him & photos of us in my laptop... I'm still having the sweet feeling... yup yup... Miss him alot... Then i realised that the only way that i can hear his voice is through his videos... Deleted him from my fb long ago... cause i know myself very well... I'll keep viewing his profile... & this will only make me more sad... But still,i viewed Beng's profile... Hoping to see some new photos of him... 1 month has past... :( ok.. I still love yong xing...
Realised that i actually smoke alot when i'm out this few days.... at least 10 cigs/day... I dont know what's wrong with me... I really want to quit... But this is the only way that i feel that he's beside me... sorry guys... i still didn't quit.... :'( A few days ago, 1 of my friend told me that if i still dont control, next time it will be 20 cigs/day.... haiz....
Today saw Mich & Ade at Tiong de mac... Then saw some photos on Mok's birthday... Saw me & him in those photos... Really sweet... :( I know i got to go back to normal... But i can't....
PS: Probably i need more time for this...
Just wanna say, "I still love you alot alot alot... & yes! it's still increasing each day... Never stop!"
"And please don't tell me that I'm dreamin' When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you....."

I still miss him... [Smoke till i forget you....]
Thursday, August 20, 2009, 11:10 PM
I SAW HIM TODAY... :(
Today when to sch in the morning to sit for my drawing exam...
On my way, to the class room, he actually came to my mind & i was wondering how would i face him if 1 day we bump into each other in sch... & i was hoping that i wont be able to see him for the next 2 years plus... But i know it's impossible... Since we're both in ABE.... :(
Isometric drawing is tough & i seriously hope i can pass my drawing overall....
Then right after paper, went to W5 to do presentation for exp with Jing....
Just when we were on our way to moberly, saw HIM walking through W5 to W5a...
:( He look super tired... Not the HIM who i knew before... [The Smiley de ta...]
He wore his spec (should be a new one), headset on (still not using the one that i bid on net), carrying his model stuff.... He kept yawning... He look really tired....
When i saw him from far, i was totally shock, & idk why, my heart just hurts...
I stopped where i am & look at him... But he didn;t see me....
Or maybe he pretend not to see me....
After a while, when he slowly disappear from my sight, i continue my way to the stat...
Felt like crying... But, tears still didn;t roll down... No point crying...
But my heart still hurts when i realise that we're totally strangers to each other now....
Just then, saw shaun & some of his friends from DARCH... Shaun saw me, but he didn;t wave/"Hi"... He didn;t recognise me? idk.... Whenever i see his friends, it just makes me think of him... & at the end i ended emo-ing... :(
Sometimes, i'm wondering.... Why is love like this.....
We were together & as close as none of you could think off...
But after a break up, we are totally strangers....
& i felt that he actually finds me irritating...


PS: Where's the love like before.....
I felt that eveything was so fake....
I still love him but i know there's no way back....
I need time to forget you.....

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Sunday, August 9, 2009, 1:08 PM
"i love you... you love me... we're one happy family... with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you... (muacks) won't you say you love me too..."


"Yipee yaya... yipee yipee ya... yipee yaya... yipee yipee ya... yipee yaya, yipee yipee yaya, yipee yipee yaya, yipee yipee ya...."